Marriage

ok lets try this again. I have come almost full circle since arriving to this place. i have found that my marriage is so much stronger and committed nothing like having no one here to count on to make you really want to be with your spouse..

We are very very very far from perfect and we bicker often the truth is that i have a hard time being next to him and then i find it hard to be away from him. it like i cant breathe when he is around and i can't breath without him. and all i ever worry about is that he does not feel the same way. It's a lot like those horrible chick flicks. I guess the hardest thing is that i am not sure of what is to come i have made many many mistakes and the fear is a rational from my childhood i do not want to be the same woman i do not want to go thru the same things that my parent went thru where my mother, loved my father and my father took her and her love and the hard work she put into the relationship for granted. i have not always felt this way there was a time when i truly contemplated a divorce and the truth is that if it wasn't for the efforts that my husband put in when i had given up. we would not be together but we are together because of him.